Friday, April 30, 2010

Here are the three robin's eggs that are in a nest in Jarrett's tree at Blackberry Cemetery.
Friday, April 30, 2010 - This afternoon, I went into the post office and stopped at the cemetery to check on how the flowers are doing by the gravestone. And they're fine!

On my way up the hill, I stopped by Jarrett's tree and saw some long stringy things hanging on the side of the tree. So, I parked the car and got out and went over to find out what was going on and there was this nest in the middle of Jarrett's tree. OMG!

I went home and got my camera and came back and took this picture. Mama Robin was NOT happy either time I disturbed her peaceful existence. Sorry Mama. That's the last time I'll do that! It was cool because I put the camera right over the nest, snapped the picture and there it is.

It speaks to me of life and it's another message from Jarrett to me to "hang in there." I'm trying. Right now, my eye is stinging because of the night drops and my eye is so red. But I'll hang on as long as I keep getting such cool messages from J-man. bye. see ya later, djb

Friday, April 16, 2010

All of a sudden, last night, I spotted this J on the floor of the garage! Of course, I had to take a picture of it!!!
Friday, April 16, 2010 - For more than half of his life, Jarrett had a mother who was close to death at times but didn't really look all that sickly. It's hard to claim a handicapped parking spot (which I never did) when you look fine because the prednisone puffs up the body and a person doesn't look pale and wan or on death's doorstep. But I was on the threshold more than once -- more times than I can remember. For many years, I had to take a nap every afternoon because I was so weak and feeble -- not to mention exhausted!

That didn't stop me from taking care of my children because I was the one who wanted them. I think they came to earth to be my babies because they knew I'd always be their champion. Maybe Jarrett's soul knew that more than Andrew's because after my splenectomy, he said, "Mom, please come home, I'll take care of you!"

And he did. I'll never forget it. I can still see that little 7 year old boy in my mind's eye sitting by the side of the bed and taking my "order" for dinner. (What would you like? I don't know. Well, we're having chicken, so you might want to choose that!) It was heartfelt at the time, and now it's heartbreaking because he won't be here when I get old and feeble to care about me. Who will cry when I die? That's the title of book I came across the other day. It makes me wonder.

Apparently, I'm mentally ill because I can't seem to get over the loss of my children. Oh well, a lot of the famous people in history weren't quite right either. I guess I'm in good company.

The point of the J, you wonder? It was Jarrett giving me a message -- clear and cryptic -- that I will be all right. He's the one who always worried about my ITP. After he died, I went into remission and have remained there. I have the feeling that he's telling me, "Mom, I'll take care of you." Amen to that, J-man. Love you forever. ~djb

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Andrew and Jarrett's gravestone on April 13, 2010 - the flowers are coming out. oh boy!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010 - Yesterday - early afternoon - I went into the cemetery to take a picture of the flowers that are coming up in front of Andrew and Jarrett's gravestone. There are more daffodil flowers blooming this year than ever before.

All winter long, I said that the snow blankie was important for the flowers and I was right!! All of the bulbs that are emerging are gorgeous and happy. It's sweet. see ya later, djb

Friday, April 2, 2010

Here's a bunch of yellow daffodils in the front garden. I'm putting them on Andrew and Jarrett's blog because if it weren't for them, I wouldn't have planted all those flowers!
Friday, April 2, 2010 - Yesterday was a record-breaker for us. The previous high temp for the day was 82 degrees back in 1946 (the year Grandpa & Granny got married). The official temperature for the day turned out to be 83 degrees at O'Hare Airport. It was wonderfully warm!!!!!!!! My perfect temperature (plus ONE). sigh.........

see ya later, djb